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Magnolia
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where will we go when the sun sets?
and the light fades
forever I will tell you all my truths
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and where will we go with the sunrise?
when the light comes again
nothing is as beautiful as you
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surround me with your colors when all i see is black
we take roots and i blossom
fulfill my sentences
cheer me up
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my senses become
magnolia
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Smile
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your hand on mine
radiates a sense of calm
coffee in bed
wanna stay here for all time
I’m at peace with myself
I am strong, feel invigorated
since you gave me space to fall into your eyes
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even if you cut me lose now I'd carry on, oh
with my head up high
I’d hold my head up high let me be here now
I let it go, oh
I'm not scared anymore
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I wanna cry out loud
from what you do to me,
for how I feel but I remain silent
enjoy the butterflies
you said I’m wild and twirly
how I'd love to come and rest
will you be my hideaway?
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even if you cut me lose now I'd carry on, oh
with my head up high
I’d hold my head up high let me be here now
I let it go, oh
I'm not scared anymore
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of your smile
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At The Pool
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sunshade’s waving
in this hazy breeze of air
midday celebration
we’re sippin on champagne
living the good life
no one cares about the world out there 30 degrees
cricket in bikinis
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at the pool
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time is disappering
it's getting darker, music’s gettin louder swaying in the movement
find me in the moment
I’m making out with her
then her lover joins in
I take a look around
and I suddenly see him
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at the pool
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I take off my shirt
jump in the water
own his attention let go my borders
he’s sliding over taking my hand
I just let it happen
’cause I understand
where this is heading
yeah, we both know
there’s only one place we wanna go
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away from those looks heat of the moment
lay down with the man that I loved in a past life
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forgetting everything
that's around me
turning off the lights
yeah, its all about those blurry nights
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Awakened
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sleepless
waking up at five
close the doors and windows it’s raining outside
wandering around
don’t know where to go
coffee in my hands
staring at the unawakened blue
and this is how the story ends the story at the pool
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10 Days
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10 days of hiding
9 times of fake smiling
8 thoughts of confessing but holding it back then
7 nights of sleeping next to him and keeping him guessing
6,4,3 hours ’till I'm cracking
2 voices find me displacing
and one thought
tell him
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back to reality
start to act like nothing's ever happened to me leave the train
need to focus again
try to put this back into the back of my mind drug myself
to get lost somewhere
walking with darkness
right next to my fear
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10..
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I play my game
I'm waiting for
the bomb to explode
I got it in my hands
do I tell him today?
no I'll tell him tomorrow
disguising myself right infront of his friends I'm breathing casually
while strolling through the city
until I'm reflecting
my insecurity
upon you
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10...
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Basil
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purity
water through my veins dripping into darkness
left with the stains
of the drinks we never made going down with the taste of
basil leaves
scattered cross the floor
something is gone since you left
I'm hoping that it comes back
this kitchen is a mess
just like the space in my head
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are you still there?
are you still with me?
are you still in?
can you forgive me?
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these dishes
like abandoned places
can’t put them away
want them to stay
I’ll be sitting and waiting for you
to know what to do
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would you still be there?
would you still be with me?
would you still be in?
and will you forgive me?
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Shivers
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tears like crystals crashing down below
a sea of endless shivers caught up in my heart
feels like crystals
burning in my throat
a storm of endless shivers caught up in my lungs
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will we ever return?
I wonder if those wounds will heal with time
you dare me to stay
to face what has been done and not to run away
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I want to escape but I’m bound in cellophane
completely overwhelmed
body fights with my mind
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tears like crystals crashing down below
a sea of endless shivers caught up in my heart
feels like crystals
burning in my throat
a storm of endless shivers caught up in my lungs
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I got no words to explain
leave you in the dark again and again
hide in my shelter
somewhere between silence and confusion
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I want to escape but I’m bound in cellophane
completely overwhelmed
body fights with my mind
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tears like crystals crashing down below
a sea of endless shivers caught up in my heart
feels like crystals
burning in my throat
a storm of endless shivers caught up in my lungs
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in the ocean bed
lightning above me and storm up ahead
these stones in my belly
drag me down to the ground
I’m wrapped up in silence
and chilled to the bone
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I DON’T DESERVE YOU
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unfaithful
put herself first
just like a stranger to you
unpredictable
prayed on your goodness so heartless
always faking a smile
selfdestructive
once the victim and now the offender is there a solution
or will you surrender?
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pleaded guilty
so unforgivable
that night that left a dark hole in you
why dont you leave her?
why dont you hate her?
and why are you sitting here talking still trying to fix what’s broken
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hurt
though she was getting hurt how could she pass it on to you
she took the risk
of losing it all
in 10 days of silence she sealed her lips
so reckless
once the victim and now the offender is there a solution
or will you surrender?
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pleaded guilty
so unforgivable
that night that left a dark hole in you
why dont you leave her?
why dont you hate her?
and why are you sitting here talking still trying to fix what’s broken
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is there a solution?
or will you surrender?
why don’t you leave her?
why don’t you hate her?
why are you sitting here talking? still trying to fix whats broken
so unforgivable
always faking a smile
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Go Back
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I felt like you felt once
back when I was not enough the forest's little shadows
they reliefed him of his clothes
seemed like he would have never even told me
can we go back to
when I was a child
can we go back to
when you sang me lullabies
I felt like you felt once that body for one touch imprisoned in a circle where you can't speak up
seemed like I had never even told him
can we go back to
when I was a child
can we go back to
when you sang me lullabies
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Wittingly
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I am waking up
and I’m shaking off
my old self
wanna be myself again
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all those years passed by
out of control and naive
I wanna leave them behind
wanna see what’s behind
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twigs and leaves made out of stone
that cradle something that is broken
something's broken
I was never strong enough to let them go
but now they begin
begin to fade
and i let them fall wittingly
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found your love
made it mine
opened arms and lost the line
he had my body
but never my soul
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reached a state of mind
a place to heal with time
stepped out for a second
but now I’m back again
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twigs and leaves made out of stone
that cradle something that is broken
something's broken
I was never strong enough to let them go
but now they begin
begin to fade
and I let them fall wittingly
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Shades Of Blue
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imagine your arms around my shoulders
I’m drawing us in shades of blue
clearing my mind in those silent waters
in reflections of me and you
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imagine your hands on my skin
I’m floating in your shades of blue
clearing my soul in those silent waters
in reflections of me and you
we got the whole wide sea in our hands
I feel its tides rising out my chest
leaves only my beating heart on a bed of sand
revealing me coming to rest
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Introspection EP
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Introspection
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oh, I wonder what is it about
and why can’t we embrace what we feel and all our changes
I tell you
all about me
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come and focus on heavens blue
raising up is our hideaway
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when you’re down I breathe you again
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Warned you
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we said goodbye with a cold hug
I turned around my tears drop
but I’m not in love
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you know that I accept all your excuses
but now I’m on the floor
I trust nobody
really nobody
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I go on
let my feelings die
because I can’t assign
my mind is clear now
and I warned you
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I’m alone without you
and too much with you
but thats not your fault
thats really not your fault
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I thought I tear down my savety walls
but no, now I’m diggin’ ditches
I swear I’ve tried to
stop my hiding
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I go on
let my feelings die
because I can’t assign
my mind is clear now
and I warned you
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my soul, my mind
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Searching
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plans are meant to be changed
but how can they change when I’ve got none?
eyes like seas to get lost in
but how can I get lost when they’re all shallow?
our skin is longing for a touch
but mine just keeps waiting for another
my ears are listening to these words
but will you be with me when I’m silent?
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carry me deep into the night
with you I could leave it all behind
wondering how we, how we will ever meet
but when we‘re searching we won’t find
when we‘re searching we won’t find
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my mom is asking how I feel
I hold back my tears I don’t want her to see me cry
looking for an honest home
will you be the one to let me rest and grow?
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carry me deep into the night
with you I could leave it all behind
wondering how we, how we will ever meet
but when we‘re searching we won’t find
when we‘re searching we won’t find
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Night Arrives
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summery lightness
where have you gone?
without freckles on my nose
you left me alone
and I try to make friends with the early dark
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leaves turn brown
what will I do?
they’re taking control over me and my mood
and I am walking around like a ghost
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sun will be coming
she’ll hear my longing for some hold
sun will be rising
and light my way again
till then I learn to be my own guardian
when the night arrives
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milky clouds
they’re taking me away
I don’t feel like leaving
how can I stay?
and try to become one with this new reality
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sun will be coming
she’ll hear my longing for some hold
sun will be rising
and light my way again
till then I learn to be my own guardian
when the night arrives
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Uncharted Flower
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uncharted flower
she glows in the night
unworthy hours
you didn’t treat her right
don’t face her with spite
why does she have to fight?
you don’t know her
do you realize that you can easily destroy her?
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I like to show him
how i want it right
but I’m afraid
that I will hurt him
and he’ll feel rejected and ashamed
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I try to touch her
in the way I was taught on tv
her eyes roll backwards
moans get louder
why’d she lie to me?
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uncharted flower
some colors she wouldn’t show
fragile power
until you let her go
unloved petals
their story is still untold
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I like to show him
how i want it right
but I’m afraid
that I will hurt him
and he’ll feel rejected and ashamed
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I try to touch her
in the way I was taught on tv
her eyes roll backwards
moans get louder
why’d she lie to me?
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stumble and grow EP
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Illusion
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I wasn't looking for someone else
instead I chose to go my way
some boys crossed that path
and I dragged them off
but they where talking way too much
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down on my knees
I admit to myself
that I'm so lonely
down on my knees
I admit t myself
that I'm in need for somebody
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illusion
in every thoughtful man I see the one for me
illusion
I'm beggin' you, baby
I'm beggin' you
please find me
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I'm holding back
my feelings cause people played with my trust
I want to be free
doing what I want
will you spend some time with me?
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down on my knees
I admit to myself
that I'm so lonely
down on my knees
I admit t myself
that I'm in need for somebody
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illusion
in every thoughtful man I see the one for me
illusion
I'm beggin' you, baby
I'm beggin' you
please find me
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Every Step
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every step you're taking hurts
I try to gain control cause you lost it
have tried to save you so many times
from your self-destruction
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every single lie hurt
you'd never live up with my expectations
keep on running around in circles
but I'm addicted to your touch
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I had already giving up on us
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one last chance
I'm sorry that I came back
but maybe we can try it again
one last chance
to find out it'll never work
we were so much but not enough
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t'was like the second first time we met
though you needed me more than I did
all the times you left me hanging
made me feel like you don't care about me
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I love to share my mind with you
you're more to me than a soulmate
but every step we're taking hurts
we silently cry for help
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I had already giving up on us
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one last chance
I'm sorry that I came back
but maybe we can try it again
one last chance
to find out it'll never work
we were so much but not enough
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Run Away
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late at night you're calling her
and searching for something
that makes her feel your pain too
life is a terrible game
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you
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you try to run away from yourself
but it won't work
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it's about keeping up this house of cards
but the next storm will blow it down again
you wanna leave and take another go
in the wrong direction to fall back again
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this restless feet keep your mind awake
even when you lie fast asleep
it's easy to say "leave the past behind"
stand still and breathe in and breathe out
and then
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you try to run away from yourself
but it won't work
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Secret
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after you left I stayed a little while
looked at people and I faked a smile
change my mind or blow it away?
I don't know why but I felt empty that day
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we layed in bed but not in eachothers arms
you turned away but you meant no harm
do I annoy you?
would you like to sleep alone?
cold heart
maybe I should have gone home
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I'm your secret, secret
she musn't know
I try to keep it, keep it
but I'm no good at all
you're my weakness, weakness
I can't resist
so many times before I've been done with this
yet here I lie again
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the moon painted shadows in your face yesterday
tonight I'm searching them in bars in vain
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we layed in bed
turned back to back
I needed closeness but you didn't know that
and I would never show that
I should have to tell you that
I might like you more than I meant to allow
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I'm your secret, secret
she musn't know
I try to keep it, keep it
but I'm no good at all
you're my weakness, weakness
I can't resist
so many times before I've been done with this
yet here I lie again
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North EP
Falter
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I left you now I can’t see you anymore
I am on the run
in the dark my lonely heart beats
you took all my breath
we floated into the cold and fresh air
and our bodies froze
my hot blood was cold as ice
fire stopped to breathe
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I give you security
you stagger me again
but I can’t see you falter
I give you all I got
I don’t know how long I’ll stand
but I can’t see you falter
follow me and I will run away
stand still and I come back
when I touch you I will never let you go
and that’s why I can’t breathe
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I give you security
you stagger me again
but I can’t see you falter
I give you all I got
I don’t know how long I’ll stand
but I can’t see you falter
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Hide & Seek
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wideness fills my body
I look across a frozen lake
on the other side I see you
you’re so far away
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the black woods behind me
backing me up
so I can savour the feeling
without any fear
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what am I hiding?
when did this come out?
I am scared of seaching though
I am all set
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let me bathe in your cold honesty
so I can give up my
let me bathe in your cold honesty
so I can give up my hide and seek
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I’m making my way
towards you
controlling every move
have to be careful not to slip
you know the black woods behind me
backing me up
but now I’m getting nervous
the wind blows through the leaves
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let me bathe in your cold honesty
so I can give up my
let me bathe in your cold honesty
so I can give up my hide and seek
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what am I hiding?
when did this come out?
I am scared of seaching though
I am all set
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